Thomas Mondel Writer. Thinker. Blogger.

The Creative Process

The creative process…

  • This is going to be awesome!
  • I look at the blank page.
  • But… where do I start?
  • I freak out.
  • FUCK!
  • I switch to Youtube.
  • Watch a funny video of Jennifer Lawrence. I love that girl.
  • I go back to the blank page.
  • I freak out one more time.
  • WHY AM I SO FUCKING STUPID!
  • How did I think I can do this?
  • I switch over to Facebook. Someone texted me? What’s up with my friends? Any new news?
  • No. Back to the blank page.
  • I suck…
  • I hear myself coming up with all good excuses why I don’t really have to do this now.
  • I published an article yesterday, so I am fine right?
  • I have 6 more written articles in the queue.
  • No worries?
  • I take a break.
  • I make myself a coffee. Maybe caffeine helps?
  • It doesn’t.
  • When does it kick in?
  • I research benefits of drinking coffee and the relevance in regards of the creative process and coming up with new ideas.
  • Nothing productive comes from it.
  • I end up with another video of Jennifer Lawrence. God, this woman is amazing…
  • My phone rings. I decline and put it into Airplane mode. I tell myself that this is not important right now.
  • I go back to the blank page.
  • Maybe if I just write down my thoughts anything useful comes from it?
  • I start writing.
  • I delete it again.
  • What a stupid idea. Nobody cares about that shit! Nobody will read this nonsense.
  • I take another break.
  • I am not feeling it and I somehow don’t get into the flow. I convince myself to try another time when inspiration hits me.
  • I google flow. I am sure I’ll learn something new which can help me to overcome my procrastination and ignite my creative process.
  • I don’t.
  • I go back to work.
  • Still no creative insights.
  • Is it lunch time already?
  • No.
  • Focus!
  • Ok. Let’s just lower my requirements for “good quality”, I tell myself.
  • Writing ANYTHING is good enough to get this over with.
  • I just start typing away once more.
  • 500 words of random bullshit.
  • “But that’s OK, we are starting the creative process.”
  • At least I try to convince myself that it’s OK.
  • But it’s not. I don’t believe myself at all.
  • I keep writing nonetheless.
  • Most of it is nonsense and gibberish crap.
  • “No worries, I can restructure it later.”, I keep telling myself. Still kinda not believing it though.
  • Slowly, with time, my mind quiets itself a little bit. It no longer questions my “creative work” all the fucking time.
  • I stop and go over what I have written so far.
  • I realize that I am not judging myself as harshly as I did when I was just starting out. That’s cool for a change.
  • I see a little piece and idea I resonate with.
  • Can this be the foundation of an OK-ish post?
  • Do I have a strong opinion about it?
  • Somehow I like it.
  • I resonate with it.
  • I guess I’ll just give it a try.
  • I write down some more ideas supporting this tiny “message”.
  • I outline a full blog post. Looks good.
  • I no longer care if anybody will read the post in the near future.
  • I want it to be written.
  • I want to write it for myself.
  • I want to get it out of my system.
  • I want this idea to “exist”.
  • So I fill in all the gaps in the outline until it’s done.
  • Everything flows very naturally now.
  • Everything clicks.
  • And done.
  • Where did that come from?!
  • I save it and close the window and don’t look at it again for the next couple of days.
  • I revisit it one more time later that week and wonder who wrote it at first. Then I edit minor mistakes, rewrite complicated text passages and make them easier to understand.
  • I remove the first paragraph and sometimes even the last.
  • I remove a lot of nonsense in-between.
  • I cut away a bit more.
  • Can I remove that sentence as well?
  • I let my computer read it to me with this weird Siri-sounding voice. It allows me to distance myself a little bit more from what I have written.
  • I fix sentences that sound stupid or too complicated and go over it one more time.
  • I read it out aloud yet again. Anything that I wouldn’t say in a normal day-to-day conversation goes to the trash immediately.
  • Can I delete that section too without destroying the underlying message? Most of the times I can.
  • Most of my rewriting is deleting and making it simpler. Trying to get the FK Score as low as possible.
  • Now that’s good enough.
  • And I am suddenly super proud about what I did.
  • Especially given the rough start.
  • I look back at how this piece of content was created and feel an immense feeling of gratitude and peace. I don’t know how that works exactly, but I guess it has to do with overcoming mind-made obstacles and refusing to give in. It’s a very liberating feeling.
  • I thank “my muse” and give her credit.
  • I publish the new post to the world.
  • I created something from nothing.
  • Whatever happens now doesn’t matter anymore.
  • All that matters is to repeat it the next day all over again.
  • But for now… I’ll watch another video of Jennifer Lawrence!
Thomas Mondel Writer. Thinker. Blogger.